I never thought things would change as quickly as they have. Well quick is a relative term really. In retrospect it has probably been coming for ages. At times it would feel as if nothing was changing, apart from perhaps getting more complicated.
In December I was asked to “Trust”. Just that. Just trust. Sounds simple on the one hand, not so simple to put into practice. I had post-it notes in various places, as well as my coach reminding me that I just needed to trust. It got to the point that I really didn’t want to hear that word – I was almost ready to consign the word to the swear jar!
And then suddenly, almost magically, things shifted. In a totally unexpected way and time. Close friends and family know that things have been somewhat turbulent for a good few months for me. Increasingly building a feeling of frustration. Patience is not one of my strong points, usually only achieved with herculean effort and much gritting of teeth – especially when it comes to something of my own. (I have infinite patience with so many other aspects and people in my life)
I went on an adventure. A train trip to London, alone. This was a huge step for me and a milestone in conquering my fear of going to new places on my own. I was meeting my coach for a celebratory lunch. My journey saw me amidst the throng of people enjoying a break in London as we all seemingly got jammed at the exit gate from the platform, eventually exiting into the main concourse. It felt like half the world had arrived at the same time. People standing around waiting for a departure, in the queue for the ladies. A multitude of people. Not the ideal space for an introvert who has moments of anxiety!
Walking through the streets of London away from the tourist areas was surreal. Quiet, birdsong, private park areas, minimal traffic. In fact it was quieter and more pleasant walking there than in the town nearest me. It was a 12 minute walk to our lunch venue, only the universe was playing with us and Google maps was giving us directions based on using a car!
Lunch venue was amazing, with a separate gluten-free menu! Heavenly! An almost random text message changed so much for me!
We strolled to Hyde Park Gardens, and instantly transported into another world. It certainly didn’t feel like central London. Following paths and just enjoying the atmosphere we sat on a bench on the banks of the Serpentine watching the swans, geese, ducks and pedal boats. And the courageous swimmers at the Lido across from us.
Somewhere along the way an amazing feeling of peace came over me. It was an easy walk back to the station and I felt completely at ease. Such a transformation for me as my old-self would feel anxious about which platform, was the train on time, would I easily find a seat and a charging point for my phone? This time I found a place to sit and charge my phone before boarding the train and easily had time to find my allotted carriage and seat.
This feeling of ease and peace persisted, it’s still here. Yes it could be swamped in the day-to-day busyness of life, so I am aware and nurturing this amazing feeling. It does mean making changes to my life and these are beneficial ones. Like taking time for me in between daily tasks, making sure I eat healthy meals and get plenty of time in nature. All the things that feed my soul.
The image here is one I captured whilst in Hyde Park Gardens – an enormous dragonfly carved out of an old tree. The detail, not only of the dragonfly, but the background, is amazing, Including the buildings, a plane in the sky and the grass and other insects in the foreground. The dragonfly was something I adopted as a logo when I first started out in business, because it is so representative of magic and transformation.
It can really change when you step out of your comfort zone and notice some of the little things around you and not always expecting to have life dish up BIG changes. Yes there is work that needs to be done, things that require energy shifts and changes. It has happened for my clients, sometimes even more than they or I anticipate.
Are you ready to weave magical light and transformation into your life?